time for some updates again......quite alot happened over the past 2 weeks...things tt should oredi hav ended dragged abit...& it officially ended on the 1st day of new yr...sad...but not veri...coz i've sorted out my thoughts over the few days b4 tt...din realli go anywhere during new yr...stayed at home most of the days & played online games to kill time...on the 2nd day of cny...got to noe a new frend while playing an online mahjong game...had quite a nice chat wif him...find tt he's quite a nice person oso...well...the nxt day we met online to play & chat at the same time...till now we're still in contact though we dun realli play tt game so often liaoz......nothing to update for valentine's day...coz i dun hav one obviously....haha....hmmm...got my exam results on the following monday after tt...which is 2 days ago...18th feb...this time round i'm realli veri nervous...realli veri worried...expected myself to fail either 1 or both of the papers...in the end...i fare better then wat i had expected...i passed both papers...although its juz a borderline passing grade...but i oredi considered myself to be veri lucky to hav passed the papers...but i'm oso sad at the same time...haiz......shall not talk abt wat i'm sad abt......now i onli hope tt things will develop well......there's some little issues tt hav to be overcomed...i think i've oredi prepared myself for tt...so juz hav to see how things goes...coz its oso not abt me alone.......hope things will be become better.......
since things had ended on fri...2 guys hav asked me out...but dunno why i dun realli hav the mood to meet anyone...dun wan to hav a repeat of wat had juz happened so soon...i still need more time...hopefully by cny my mood would hav brightened up...even by juz a little bit...after cny comes valentine's day...a lonely valentine's day again for this yr...haiz...so sick of everything & myself...dun wan to think but sometimes ppl will ask abt it...some is happy to hear tt news...some is sad for me...as for myself...i'll juz hav to get used to how things was b4...if not wat can i do...hate tt feeling of helplessness...i juz hate it...i will make myself feel better soon...as soon as possible...its not as if its the end of the world...& i think i'll be able to find a better one...soon...
tot tt i wont be so sad...oso dunno why but i actualli feel so broken up now......i like him...i think i like him quite alot...& although i oredi noe tt it would turn out to be like tt...but i'm still so sad......i believed his words......telling me to trust him...telling me tt he'll protect me from harm...& now the one hurting me turns out to be him...the one who told me tt he'll protect me...haha...now it all seems like a joke...a veri cruel joke to me......maybe i started to trust too soon...nv should hav trusted...oredi did all i can...but the ending is still the same...leaving myself so broken up...din tot tt i would cry...especially when i'm in the office...maybe i juz tot too highly of my ability to keep my emotions under control...haha...well...since it happened le...i can onli accept it......although i may look fine on the surface...but actualli i noe i'm still in pieces now...i think it will take some time for me to recover this time......luckily din become powder...if not even worse...but if realli become powder i think i'll hav to treat it like milo...put hot water stir then drink it...haa......today is the first day of the month...& i'm oredi feeling so blue now......so wat is my status now? single? haha......open to all other choices? nahz...dun think so......it takes time......