Diary . .
juz came home...decided to update abit b4 i go sleep...wat should i blog abt...
hmm... i think both male & female have needs. but usually in a relationship. the guys will get their needs satisfied. as for the gals. it's maybe. i think usually the guys get their needs settled & the matter ends here. it doesn't matter to them if the gals' needs is satisfied.
ok. maybe not all the guys. maybe onli some of them. maybe i'm juz too used to the way how things were for almost more than a yr. i think i've been a good gal since cny. & i'm still trying to let things stay the way it had been for the past 3 months.
though sometimes things nearly get out of control but in the end i still managed to control it. i noe some ppl will simply say why make urself unhappy. if u're not happy then juz change one. i'm not unhappy. am i? i noe i may sound complacent. but i noe i have no problem finding another one. problem is will tt one be true to me?
other than tt. the thing is i dun wan to change. i noe this may sound crazy. or even scary. maybe it sounds more of scary than crazy. i dun wan to scare anyone. including myself & especially him. but somehow i think he's the one i'm looking for. ok. maybe tt's onli how i feel. the feeling may not be mutual. no use waiting for me. chances realli veri low.
when will i giv up? maybe some day if i think i've realli tried everything i could. maybe then will i giv up. hope i won't end up getting myself hurt. if i do. i think i'll oso stand along wif the ppl laughing at myself. haha. serve u right.
alright. realli have to go lock the doors & sleep le. oredi switched off my hp. i'm gg to sleep off it. until it goes away. the doors & hp is juz measures to prevent myself frm running out. time to sleep.