Diary . .
well well...almost a month since i last updated my blog...hopefully din kena spot check...hahaha...hmm...let me see...wat happened during the past few weeks...haha...although i veri forgetful but din forget everything lahz...hehe...well...jiayan resigned le...miko oso resigned...& she's leaving nxt week...gonna be a tough & lonely time for me frm nxt week onwards...although isaac came back to work while waiting for his enlistment...but think he wont be working there veri long lahz...coz i think he'll receive his letter soon maybe...haiz...so sad rite...left me only...wat to do...haa...not everything is so sad for me lahz...coz i still got my dearie...hehe...oh ya...he's tt frend who appeared in my previous post...now he's my bf liaoz...hehe...maybe abit too fast...coz its onli a month since things ended for me & tt guy...& we had onli known each other for a month or so...hmm...but dunno lehz...juz feel tt he's someone i can trust...though there's some issues here & there...& one of it is the age issue lahz...coz he's 14 yrs older than me...but for me i think ok lahz...i like can liaoz mahz...who cares wat other ppl think...but i'm not realli sure for his part lahz...hmm...but i realli mus kowtow to him...coz dun think there's any guys who can stand my temper & mood swings....haha...i noe i veri bad lahz...but wat to do...if tt can be changed then i would hav oredi changed a long time ago & i wont be called lihui liaoz...hahaha...other than tt...i think maybe coz i'm quite touched lahz...other than him there's oso a few other guys who appeared ard tt same time but...not much feel lehz...one of them maybe is coz too frend liaoz...the other 2 arz...ehh...suay lohz...hehe....coz i oso dunno why......although we dun get to meet much but we'll still chat on the phone almost every other day lahz...coz we both need to work...i need to study....& he live abit far lahz...but i realli hope tt things will work out lohz...but i still abit scare lahz...scare tt i'll get hurt again...coz i'm too much of a crybaby liaoz...gets abit emotional easily...wan to love but scare to love...maybe i oso abit of a pessimist baz...although i alwaiz help ppl to think positively...but for myself...i'll think if i'm to fall too deep into it...if someday it hav to end...i'll realli be veri veri veri broken up...haiz...maybe he's juz like me...coz last nite he ask me if i'll abandon him for some other guys...sounds quite a sad thing...dunno why my tears juz roll out frm my eyes...haa...said tt i abit emotional at times le lohz...juz can't bear too hear such sad things...din realli ans him...coz i dun like to giv ppl empty promises...& i realli dunno wat will happen in the future...i onli noe tt for now & the near future...tt situation will not happen...i'm 100% sure tt it'll not happen for the nxt few months until the end of the year...nxt year is still abit too far away for me to be 100% sure...i'm onli ard 80% sure...haha...considered quite positive for me liaoz lohz...hehe...enuff of updates for now le lahz...^u^
a gift frm my dearie...^u^