Diary . .
tot tt i wont be so sad...oso dunno why but i actualli feel so broken up now......i like him...i think i like him quite alot...& although i oredi noe tt it would turn out to be like tt...but i'm still so sad......i believed his words......telling me to trust him...telling me tt he'll protect me from harm...& now the one hurting me turns out to be him...the one who told me tt he'll protect me...haha...now it all seems like a joke...a veri cruel joke to me......maybe i started to trust too soon...nv should hav trusted...oredi did all i can...but the ending is still the same...leaving myself so broken up...din tot tt i would cry...especially when i'm in the office...maybe i juz tot too highly of my ability to keep my emotions under control...haha...well...since it happened le...i can onli accept it......although i may look fine on the surface...but actualli i noe i'm still in pieces now...i think it will take some time for me to recover this time......luckily din become powder...if not even worse...but if realli become powder i think i'll hav to treat it like milo...put hot water stir then drink it...haa......today is the first day of the month...& i'm oredi feeling so blue now......so wat is my status now? single? haha......open to all other choices? nahz...dun think so......it takes time......