Diary . .
found out tt my mood haven been beautiful since mid sept...since grandma passed away...the impact is bigger than i tot...din noe tt i'll take such a long time to recover...& tt my mood will be affected tt badly......hate being treated like a kid...no longer tt spoilt...but maybe i'm juz not matured enuff......its painful to lose someone close......
first post of the month...& maybe the only one...hehe...did some thinking after reading a frend's blog......found tt many had changed...everything including myself...ppl getting busy to hav time for me...& i oso no time for many ppl...its taxing for me to work & study at the same time...i finally recognise the fact tt i'm not as strong as i used to be...or maybe i've been a strong gal for too long & my mind & brain need some break from it...but seems like its expected from me to be a strong gal...i oso dunno why...this me now is totally different...needs to be loved, pampered & cared for...quite a big change...or maybe not...well...i dun wan to be a strong gal...too stressful...ppl expecting u to be independent...expecting u to understand everything...including things tt are not said or explained to u...haiz...super tiring task...need a break from it......other than tt...i think things are going quite well for me...lessing out the part on studies...hehehe...