exams coming le...4th & 5th of june...from nxt week onwards no more playing & gg out for me le...will hav to study, study & study...haiz...this week can be considered the last week for me to play...but so suay...i've been sick since monday...then today abit better...then i now left wif weekends onli...haiz...but oso dunno wat i wan to do this weekend...meet frends or juz stay at home...yesterday meet lihui, heling & yandan...went for dinner & coffee...today i think stay at home & rot lohz...sianz...wan to go out...but dunno got who free to go out wif me...dun wan to find those "other frends"...dun feel like meeting those "other frends" today...as for tml...haven decide yet...one of my "other frends" got ask if tml wan to meet anot...then i say cannot confirm...coz i realli dunno...sianz...haiz...sometimes life juz get so boring...tot of studying now...but i oredi planned to study nxt week le...then nxt week onwards cannot play...so i tot its better to relax now...if not sure veri veri stressed...yesterday passed the notes i did to lihui...finished my final copy of the notes on wed...hopefully the notes will be useful...haha...
i'm tired...juz so so tired...why mus things turn out to be like tt...i realli dun understand...izzit realli like wat i tot...haiz...i think some part of me juz hope tt it isn't...juz dun wish to let go...i dun wan to be disappointed...i hav been disappointed once b4...& now again...i noe i hav to let go...coz this me is getting softer & softer day by day...so its now or never...maybe not never...but i noe i'll feel worst...i mus be hard-hearted now...one wrong step u take & i'll giv up totally...hopefully i can realli do tt...coz its easier said than done...so plz let me be able to let go now......