Diary . .
so tired...so tired of thinking...so tired of everything......ARGHH!!! holding back my tears...its such a tough thing to accomplish......i lost control of my emotions yesterday nite...in my room...i closed the doors...even the windows...i failed in holding back my tears...they juz flow out from my eyes...juz like a tap...haa...but eventually i still turn off tt tap...haha...i'm so frustrated with myself & everything ard me...its so weird...i tried to smile to laugh even when the tears was dripping off my face...the more i tried to smile & laugh it off...the more the tears formed in my eyes...haa...i think i'm juz too tired...so hard a decision to make...i think i juz giv up thinking...& go ahead with acca...even if i am to regret abt it ltr...i still hav to go ahead with it...no one to blame...too many problems recently...problems i dun wan to talk abt...dunno how & wat to say...& dunno who i can talk to...i can onli keep it within myself...........somewhere deep within myself.........where it cannot be found..............haaaa..............